I ran away to tell the world: 07/01/2004

i'm quilty by design

You know how hard I try
To believe
I have something
Good inside
Over barricades I climb
For the the empire in my mind

I have known love
Somewhere in time
I've been lifted up
I've looked honor
In the eyes
I have no reason
I have no rhyme
I cannot deny
There's a darkness
That's inside
I am guilty
By design
-wf

South Street Seaport

South Street Seaport

this dream i have, it's gold

have i ever mention that i love summer rain? and that i love south street seaport? and today it was both. Lindsay was suppose to come too but she decided last minute the rain was too "severe" and went home, meanwhile the whole let's hang out at seaport was her idea.
so by myself i went to Strand and brought a book by Joyce Carol Oats then head off the Seaport and took some pictures.
no matter how many times I go there, I can't get over how beautiful it is, I have folders after folders of pictures I taken at Seaport throughout different times of year.

and i am full of love and consequence
merciful, the sky of coal
the beauty of the cars' electric light,
the speed with which their destinies glow

terrible calm, terrible charm,
this dream i have, it's gold
easier now, a place to go,
vertigo
-s.slean

was i good? was i brave? did i threw it all away?

I just found out i have least than one month here in the wonderful city before I pack my things and leave for Ithaca. oooh the summer days..it's too soon, i'm not ready. sniff.

I considering of returning home the first weekend I go back for one last Ours show at Bowery show for a long time. Wouldn't that be ironic? I started my summer concert going days at Bowery and now i'm ending it at the same place.

3 months has gone so fast, i fear i'm not ready to detach myself from this place...i'll definitly miss my friends, and kim! whom without her the summer wouldn't have been nearly half as fun. and i'm not just saying this because she's the only who read this. LOL
oh one day we well go to a slean show together. just you wait!

the only thing i look forward to in school is playing with a real piano again! People who have a real piano don't realize how lucky they are! If i have time, i would spend hours in the music room, trying to play a piece of Slean song by ear, and playing sheet music i printed off online.

well i guess that's it for tonight. oh wait today i went to a super cool vintage store at Williamburg in brooklyn, it's awesome! I founded pants that fit me! and they're super cheap! I also brought this james coviello inspired dress shirt for $12. not bad..

it was also nice hanging out with just me and mel, we haven't done that since junior year in HS. we got to catch up on lots of things. oh what a long day. i fell right asleep as soon as i got on the train.

Stop thinking it's ok
Things are gonna change
You can't go on like this again
You can't avoid the day
You're the star that blast away

I heard you singing
Heard you sing, you sang to us
You sang Hallelujah
How we'd lose ourselves?

Are we better on our own?
Are we better on our own?

Was I good?
Was I brave?
Did I throw it all away?
There's a light in the crack
He's never coming back
I got lost in the wind
And I messed up everything..

-j.gnecco

there are so many things that you don't know

what can i say about last night's show that hasn't been said already. 2 and half hour of beautiful music. the show started out with 45 mins of intrumental with curtains still up and finally when the curtains came down it was like WOW. there was so much to take in, the piano, the drums, the beautiful back vocal, and there was jimmy singing away. I don't even remember the song when the curtain dropped. i took tons of pictures, but really for the first half of the show i'm still trying to figure out how to my camera. but some did came out.

why do people always do different from they say
pretending to be alive when they rather be dead
there are so many things that you dont know...
-j.gnecco

jimmy up close

jimmy and race

jimmy up close

anthony & jimmy

jimmy gnecco acoustic

bow & guitar. (locke)

and it feels like science died

Stage tonight was amazing, the best I've seen out of the 3 all summer. The set list was longer and he did Jesus was a test tube baby, which is always a crowd pleaser. It's also my new camera's first night out. The place was dark and I was too stubber to use flash so many came out either underexposed or blurry. I took over 100 pics and I have to delete some. The band have the tendency to move around so some of them didn't come out at all.

I can't wait till the Jimmy Gnecco show! michelle, fawn, and kim are coming! (let's hope Kim can get in) It's going to be amazing, Jimmy always put on a top notch show.

"y'all we're bootlegging the show...there's been whole lot of chattering so it might suck. but we're selling after the gig, so it might not suck, it might be great. but there's been a whole lot of chatter so it might suck. the performance has been top notch...BUT there's been lot of chatter so it might suck.... but if it doesn't suck you should buy it. unfortunally there's no way of knowing if it'll suck or not till after you already brought it..."
(j.arthur)

sorry i can't help myself.

Stage @ Lions Den

"sometimes pedro would do naughty things"

So not only is Joseph Arthur a talent musician, he's also a very "charming" man. Kim and I spend our wedesday night talking on AIM about how much we love Joseph Arthur's chattering between songs and she even documented it on her blog.

some favorite moments:
"we only dies, that all it dies is our egos...We don't actually ever die."

*on special effect*"it's god. We're all god. We're all Jesus. We're all Buddha....." *more weird effects*

"this guy is right...I should stop talking. But talking is fun..."

"after this we have disco beats...And they..Dancing to disco beats and eating ecstasy is exact the same as us...I also happen to like disco beats and ecstasy so might happen to dance disco beats and eating ecstasy later..."

haha..we're terrible fans.

freedom...run away tonight.

so turns out no joseph show for me. it totally slip my mind that it's 21+ . I called the venue, and emailed someone from the Joseph management. Well can't say I didn't try. I really wanted to use my new camera...

so strange that the one who saved you is the one you still blame

so along with Joseph Arthur and Jimmy Gnecco, there's also a couple of Stage shows sometime next week, this is 3rd Stage this summer, pretty good. I like it when bands I like live near here. Wish JA still lives here. ::SIGH::

I got my new camera on Sunday, it's a Mintola SLR digital, it's got Manual function with 10x optical zoom. I almost got a tradition 35mm SLR but I didn't, I kind of wish I did though since I'm going back to school soon and I can use their dark room for free but I figuer I wouldn't have the time. I can't wait to take it to a show! Till then I still need to figuer out how to get the flash to work.

Right after I got my camera, a man came up to me and started talking about these programs that he wants me to join. I'm still not sure exactly what it is, but he insisted on showing me pictures. It's some sort of church based programs where they go to places in the city and offer programs for homeless kids and such. I don't know why he thinks I would be insterested, it's just strange, he kept talking to me like I need this programs, like i have no where to go, and no friends. I told lindsay this and she's like "this happen to you a lot!" and i'm like "I KNOW!' why do weird strangers like to come up to me like I need help or could be insterested at all . Do I look desparate? He even told me he saw me across the street and just knew that he HAD to talk to me. Now he wants me to meet the "group" at bryant park, and silly me I couldn't say no to him. I didn't realize how much i didn't want to go till after I got home. How did I get myself into this?

oh on the side note I saw a pretty chicken strolling down my block today. where's the camera when you need one?

tell me what you're thinking and i'll write it in the sky

the past two night was one of the best night i have this summer. two amazing joseph arthur shows with kim! yay. it almost breaks my heart that i wont be seeing him again tomorrow at East Hampton, it's just too far and the LIRR weekend schedule makes it even harder. plus it's over 21+
i hate missing a JA show. i did it on my birthday and i promised myself i wouldn't let myself goes through that again. it's too painful!!

but to be reasonable, there'll be more JA shows i'm sure plus i might go see him in Living Room ($45!) . Now i'm looking forward to seeing Jimmy Gnecco next saturday.

Joseph Arthur @ Maxwells

so this summer I was fortunated enough to see some really wonderful shows. The best of yet I believe is the Joseph Arthur shows. It's been too since I last saw him at Bowery, and this time I get to go with someone! yay for Kim!
and since i love making lists so much...
july 15 - Joseph Arthur @ Maxells
july 20 - Joseph Arthur @ Living Room
july 31 - Muse & the Cure @ Randall's Island
july 24 - Jimmy Gnecco @ Maxellss
july 28 - Martha Waingwright @ Living Room

hopefully more in aug before i leave for Ithaca.

last night was just amazing, joseph pulled out all new songs, with new arrangements to the songs, it was really beautiful. and i think having someone to share the experience just makes it so much better.